Forgiveness: it’s a lifelong process. I had not given forgiveness much of a thought before I left life as a nun in a protective religious community; a life I had been living for more than two decades. I only began to think about the difficulty of forgiveness when I returned home to a family that I thought would respect me and welcome me back with open arms. Instead, they disowned me after a short time back, for reasons too troubling to put down into print. I became instead what felt like an orphan, someone who was shunned from family events for years.
I struggled to overcome my resentment and anger. I sought in vain for ways to embrace forgiveness and find happiness, without success. I prayed. I paid visit to counselors and spiritual advisors. I did not realize that my efforts to release my anger made a significant impact in my emotional and spiritual healing. I did not accept the fact that forgiveness is a lifelong process that cannot be hurried.